2020 READING GOALS

Along with my Goodreads Reading Challenge goal this year (80 books), I am also participating in the PopSugar 2020 Reading Challenge! Come back here often to see when I have checked a prompt off the list- the title and author of the book will be added underneath the corresponding prompt. The page with the full list of prompts will be in the menu (for a tiny bit of clarification, check there- not back to THIS post).

If you would like to know more about this challenge, go here. The Goodreads group for the challenge is a safe, fun, and very active community. I encourage you to join in! You can also visit and follow/friend my Goodreads account to track my progress on both challenges.

Leave a comment below if you’re interested or are going to participate in this challenge- or if you have any reading goals for this year, as well!

END OF 2019 POPSUGAR & GOODREADS CHALLENGES {WRAP-UP!}

I spent so much time last year uploading all my ratings and reviews for my Goodreads goals last year…I’m not doing that this time. I’m going to make this relatively short and sweet, which is easier on me and you (dear reader).

I read a lot more books and made much more progress on both my Goodreads Challenge goal and the POPSUGAR 2019 READING CHALLENGE. For the POPSUGAR challenge, I completed 19 of the 40 regular prompts and 1 of the 10 advanced prompts. If we’re including the advanced prompts in the overall challenge (and I am), I completed 40% of the challenge. Far, far better than I did last year. Click here to see the complete challenge and what books I read for what prompts.

I also read more in 2019, which I’m completely certain is because of volunteering at my local library twice a week. I am surrounded by books, including advanced reading copies I’m lucky enough to have the chance to read, so I’m now just naturally inclined to devour as many books as I possibly can. My Goodreads challenge goal was 71 books, I read 79; breaking it down- I read 47 Novels/Short Story Collections, 26 graphic novels/collected comic volumes, 3 cookbooks, 2 books of poetry, and 1 self-help book.

I am participating in the POPSUGAR 2020 READING CHALLENGE again this year, and I have set my Goodreads goal: 80 books. I’m thinking (well, hoping) I will be able to at the very least hit that goal, and maybe even surpass it.

Overall, I had a great reading year. I read a lot of absolutely amazing books and discovered many new favorite authors. I would say, if forced to pick just one book, that my favorite read of the entire year was Bassey Ikpi’s “I’m Telling the Truth, but I’m Lying”- I have never connected to a memoir more in my life. If you would like to see what all I read, including my ratings and sporadic reviews, click here.

“I’m Telling the Truth, but I’m Lying”- a review(sort of).


Expected release date: August 20th 2019, Find Bassey here



   I wouldn’t call this a review, I’m not sure what to call this. I wrote this down in the nearest notebook while being flooded with emotion over the essay “It Has A Name”, sobbing over how much I relate to Bassey, and how important a story like hers is. A friend of mine recently said (oddly, about 2 hours after I wrote this “review” down), “Being this fucked up makes us special as fuck. We have abilities and wisdom and can help other people in ways that no one else can…Flaunt your damage, bitch. Love it. Be proud of who you are and where you come from…Let them see it. There are so many people who NEED to see it”. My friend is absolutely correct (thank you, Stace). There are so many people who need to know that someone has felt the same way they do. Bassey opened herself up and poured her experiences into this book. She helped me. I have the same disorder as Bassey, Bipolar Type 2 mixed. This means that I experience hypomania which is different from mania (typically experienced by those who have Bipolar Type 1). “Mixed” refers to the fact that at times, most times, while experiencing hypomania I am still experiencing depression and vice versa. I will be recommending this book to everyone. Here, this is the “review”… which, if i’m being honest with myself and the person reading this right now, is just my raw emotional reaction to Bassey’s story:

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END OF 2018 POPSUGAR & GOODREADS CHALLENGES {WRAP-UP!}

The ubiquitous question in all bookish communities, Instagram posts, blogs, or booktuber’s (that is a word) videos: did you have a good reading year? I don’t think I did. According to Goodreads I surpassed my challenge (which I set at 71 books) and read 92 books this year. Well, um, kind of? What I consider to be actual books are novels, short story collections, cookbooks (which I became obsessed with in the last year and read cover to cover, every recipe completely read), collected volumes of comic books, and of course non-fiction books as well. Going by those guidelines I read 57 books; this is because of the fact that I do not consider single issue comics to be books. I read 35 single issue comics, partly because I subscribed to Comixology unlimited this year and became obsessed with it (and a very specific comic series which you’ll see when I break my year in books down more in depth later in this post). So, I feel like I had an okay reading year.  I set my Goodreads goal for 2019 at 71 again this year because I want to hit that goal of reading 71 books, single-issue comics not contained in that.

As far as the POPSUGAR reading challenge…yikes. I completed 38% of the challenge: 19 of 50 prompts (that is if you include the advanced challenge in that, if not it’s 19 out of 40 or 47%). I began the year wanting to only read books that would check off a prompt until I completed the challenge. What ended up happening is that the first few books I read just for the challenge I really was not into at all and it slowed my reading down a great deal. I would love to complete the 2019 challenge, but if I run into a book that I’m really not enjoying it just isn’t worth my time to force myself to finish it. I can put it down, shelve it in my DNF (did not finish), and pick up a different book. The challenge is fun and takes you out of your normal reading habits (I read some amazing books that were just for checking off a prompt, as well) but if it is torturous to get through a book just stop reading it, life is too short to read awful books.

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2019 READING GOALS

Along with my Goodreads Reading Challenge goal this year (71 books), I am also participating in the PopSugar 2019 Reading Challenge! Come back here often to see when I have checked a prompt off the list- the title and author of the book will be added underneath the corresponding prompt. The page with the full list of prompts will be in the menu (for a tiny bit of clarification, check there- not back to THIS post).

If you would like to know more about this challenge, go here. The Goodreads group for the challenge is a safe, fun, and very active community. I encourage you to join in! You can also visit and follow/friend my Goodreads account to track my progress on both challenges.

Leave a comment below if you’re interested or are going to participate in this challenge- or if you have any reading goals for this year, as well!

IT NEVER HAPPENED

In an effort to be more forgiving of myself as a writer, I will be putting up more of my writing. With many calming breaths I will hit publish on this. At some point I would love to feel comfortable enough to share my experience as a domestic abuse survivor. Posting this very raw prose piece I hope will help me feel more comfortable with digging deeper and really opening up through writing.

TRIGGER WARNING: this piece deals with domestic abuse.

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2018 READING GOALS

Along with my Goodreads Reading Challenge goal this year (71 books), I am also participating in the PopSugar 2018 Reading Challenge! Come back here often to see when I have checked a prompt off the list- the title and author of the book will be added underneath the corresponding prompt. The page with the full list of prompts will be in the menu (for a tiny bit of clarification, check there- not back to THIS post).

If you would like to know more about this challenge, go here. The Goodreads group for the challenge is a safe, fun, and very active community. I encourage you to join in! You can also visit and follow/friend my Goodreads account to track my progress on both challenges.

Leave a comment below if you’re interested or are going to participate in this challenge- or if you have any reading goals for this year, as well!

SHM RADIO, EP.2: under the ash branches

   SHM Radio- a series I originally planned to be (at the very least) monthly…and here we are 5 months later since my last post. Life happens, and the bad likes to come crashing down all at once. The universe is an asshole like that.

I compiled some of these songs back in October, thinking it wold be a good Halloween-esque playlist (because it’s a bit dark). I decided to finish it now and put the songs in an order that’s meant to be listened to from beginning to end. This playlist is much more indicative of my general taste in music than the last- and I feel it’s perfect music for the frigid cold and aura of depression that surrounds the season where (at least in Oregon) you never really see the sun.

I am aware that if you are viewing this on a mobile device and do not have a Spotify subscription, it will only play the tracks shuffled. If you listen to it on your desktop that problem is solved.

If there is an official music video for the song I will be embedding that in the description. Now, on to the descriptions- let’s get moody as fuck together.
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SHM RADIO, EP.1: life that we know is ending

A large amount of those of you who follow SHM’s page on facebook responded well to the idea of a new series delving further into my love (obsession) with music. After doing some thinking, i’ve decided to be quite cheesy with it and dub this (at least)monthly series “SHM RADIO”. Each playlist will have less of a theme and more of an atmosphere- a playlist that sounds best listened to from beginning to end (does anybody, who is also old af like me, remember telling your friends that they had to listen to your mix tape or cd you were gifting them all the way through and not skip a song or else “they just wouldnt get it”? No? Probably just me). I am aware that if you are viewing this on a mobile device and do not have a Spotify subscription it will only play the tracks shuffled. If you listen to it on your desktop that problem is solved.

When I was a kid (8-13) I used to make little mix tapes- the only difference from your regular mix format was that I would record myself introducing the songs like I was a DJ (a profession I thought would be amazing at the time). Making this gave me a little rush of nostalgia.

Unfortunately, the track that I wanted to be the first song on this playlist is unavailable on Spotify. I chose a different song that I like almost as much by the same artist. The song that couldn’t make it on here was CHVRCHES mind-blowing cover of Bauhaus’ “Bela Lugosi’s Dead”. The original is one of my favorite songs by one of my favorite bands; CHVRCHES turns it into a completely different song and makes it their own. This isn’t a half-assed cover by any means (*COUGH*MARILYN MANSON DOING “PERSONAL JESUS”*COUGH*). Do yourself a favor and check it out at your leisure:

FINALLY, on to the actual descriptions. Think of me as your DJ. Your 3am broke-into-a-radio-station-and-took-over-for a-litte-over-an-hour DJ. If there is an official music video for the song I will be embedding that in the description.

 

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